Mama Needs A Little "Venting Out"

Guys! I don’t even know how to get started with this one. Well, first off. Happy late thanksgiving to everyone, I hope everyone had an amazing time with their families cause I SURE did!! Lol today my blog post will be more of a venting out on my mom life rather then sharing fashion or holiday activities like I wanted to do. This year was our little Ava’s first thanksgiving and as usual we spend all day at my mamas helping her cook and prep things for our dinner but with a baby that's a no can do. So we staid home instead watch Christmas movies and sipped on hot coco while I prepared some homemade sangria. Finally later that evening we made it to abuela Gigi’s and had dinner with my siblings, niece and nephews. My two year old niece though showed up with a fever and just wasn’t her self, we didn’t think much of it nor did we think the other kids would get sick. Little did I know 2 days later my little Ava had a 103.6 fever and was not being her self.

It has definitely been a rough couple of days of no sleep, high fevers and a ER visit. Not knowing what was wrong with her, never in her 10 months of life have I ever seen her cry this much till these last couple of days. Literally the worst feeling in the world not being able to help your little bundle of love is the worst, for a minute without anyone telling me anything I just felt like the worst mommy, all I could do was hold her soothe her and tell her everything would be ok not knowing it would get a little worse for her. Monday I decided to stay in with her all day, not do anything and just cuddle her and prayed she would get better. For a few hours she was doing great but then night time came and she wasn’t eating, drinking or swallowing anything. We thought she might be teething but no that wasn’t it. After a whole night of none stop crying we got dressed and took her in to the ER where we were told the reason for her crying was because she was in true pain. She has blisters in her throat and that’s why she can’t eat anything cause it causes her too much pain to even swallow saliva. She even brought me a bottle herself so I could make her one, so I did and when she began to drink she threw it back and began to scream and cry the hospital didn’t do much. They ran test and put her through hell, for us to just leave 4 hours later with just Tylenol, I was very upset and frustrated. All they said was to wait for her blisters to go away which could last up to a week or 5 days. My husband and I tried different things to try and keep her hydrated so we began to feed her with a syringe releasing small amounts of pedialyte, took us a while but she finally had something in her tummy and she took a nap.

Never had she been this sick nor did I expect for it to last so long but we are hanging. I love

that she just wants to cuddle mommy. She isn’t much of a cuddle baby but right now I’m just taking it all in. There were times that negative thoughts came such as “I’m a horrible mom” “why can’t I help her” but honestly that was just all the frustration getting to me and I realize that I’m all she wanted. She wanted mommy to hold her not one sec did she want me to put her down. I literally couldn’t even use the bathroom or make myself food that was all ok for me as long as she knew she would be ok in mommies arms. Last night after our hospital visit she was very hungry and all the advice and Ideas some of y’all gave me helped! thank you so so much they all worked. I also had a brilliant idea to just give her ice cream and man was she a happy baby again lol So since I knew I couldn’t just feed her ice cream I had a lot of her Gerbers sitting in my pantry. I decided to throw a couple of them in the freezer and let them get cold enough for her to have and let me just say.. she ate 3 1/2 Gerbers and was such a happy baby afterwards so now I know that the cold helps her a little throat. I decided to give her a little bit of water at room temperature and she drank some of that and was 10 times better an hour later. My baby girl just needed food in her system to feel much better and I am so happy it helped her. Her fevers are a lot lower but she’s getting there.

Guys being a mommy is a FULL TIME JOB with a load of over time and no days off lol not complaining but there are some people out there that think it’s simple and easy being a mommy and it really isn’t but it’s the most beautiful feeling and job I could ever ask for. I love being a mommy to Ava, she is such a calm baby, has always slept through the night and rarely gets sick. I’m definitely lucky for being able to sleep through the night but overall my respects to all the mommies out there. Just know you are all appreciated and manly everything wouldn’t be possible without you all!

Thank you guys for reading a little of my venting out I really appreciate you all and stick around for some of my holiday decorating that will be coming up soon on my blog, also our family photo are from a photo session we did back in the beginning of November. At last, Ava's first Santa photo with her cousins was a bit crazy i ended up being in it... but thats a whole different story i will be sharing with y'all later, for now though enjoy the photos.